meant nothing

these few days feel extremely stress

since few of my frds took part in a special camp 

actually is not a camp 

is like a motivation talk by my class teacher's boyfrd

i heard that he is very pro in study until now he already has a doctorate

then now he is teaching them the effective method of study

i didn't take part because scare of the STRESS might meet ><

i think the method i study shd be no problem

just that i'm too lazy and lack of motivation

haha...

everyday everyone are study study study

tak boleh tahan

but cant help...it just leave 39 days to go...

i keep telling myself...

u need to work hard in this one month

to get a very good result in STPM

and get into a better university

my family will not let me enter any private university 

they cant afford that

unless i can get full scholarship==

and dont waste my time in this two years studies...

dont make myself regret

i still have the ability to determines my result

so i need to work hard

dont waste my "flying colours" result in SPM

therefore,

I NEED TO WORK HARDER AND STUDY HARDER!!!

i hope we wont be separated after this exam...

i hope we can get into same U 

these are the things i worry recenty =(

and one more thing is the trip after exam

kaw help us to arrange the date and place to go

and discuss the cost and fees

it is very difficult and time-consuming job

so thank you kaw =)

hopefully everything onwards will run smoothly with cooperation of everyone

it might be the last trip that we can have together

it's kinda disappointed when i know they're not going

although our friendship in form 6 is not as good as compared to form 5

but how can we compare the friendship built in 5 years and 1.5 years?

i felt they changed

i remember how good we are in secondary school before

but now become further and further...

actually quite envy boys them

they still able to drink tea together now

play games together

sigh kinda sad now 

COME ON COME ON DONT LEAVE ME LIKE THIS
I THOUGHT I HAD YOU FIGURED OUT
SOMETHING GONE TERRIBLY WRONG
YOU'RE ALL I WANTED
COME ON COME ON DONT LEAVE ME LIKE THIS
I THOUGHT I HAD YOU FIGURED OUT
CANT BREATHE WHEREVER YOU'RE GONE
CANT TURNED BACK NOW
I'M HAUNTED!!!

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